oi continued

Hey guys, its me scoot. Ima just ganna wing it. Man, life can suck at times. And I'm not trying to be Debbie downer over here but at times life just, well, sucks. I have so much that i can say and there are so many things that i want to say and do. But I'm never in the position to do anything. You know you want to say something but everyone tells you not to and you hold your tongue. You want to do something but they say its unwise. And I'm not saying that i disagree with anything that these people (who are respectable adults) have to say, but sometimes i just wish i could speak my mind and just let the world know what i think but i cant so i bottle everything up. I mean i could tell the adults but its not the same. There are certain things that i want to say to certain people. And eventually the thoughts and ideas i have no longer have any meaning because everyone else just goes about there business and not really paying any attention.
I mean theirs this girl right? And just want to say something and i cant. So whats ganna happen? I wont say anything and shell just go about her business never knowing what i think and just be oblivious to the obvious that is already known... it sucks..ya... but if anything is "meant to be" than everything will fall into place. But i just wonder, what if i had said something and she would have changed her mind? What if me saying something could alter what the outcome of this problem be. And so many times it seems like me saying something would have changed the situation entirely...oi